weekend recap

good weekend. had a party friday night. was suprisingly well-attended and successful for the last-minute-ness of it. saturday, ultimate -- played with ramona at coffee cup. was surprisingly fun. i think part of that had to do with the fact that i was there voluntarily, i.e. i wasn't expecting or being forced to be there. and, i got to play. and, holly wasn't there, so i didn't have to deal with her. i had forgotten how fun the gals are without the complications of holly and trying to (a) coach and (b) coach with her. i don't have the time or energy or conviction to coach; i would much rather "help out" by playing with them and saying what i see. i think i will try to go to a practice this week.

that was just part of saturday. also played goalitmate with sean and sloppy. ann cassidy was there too. sat night was hockey game in bridgeport (nj devils vs. ny islanders, preseason game), bookended by bbq and drinking at bryan's. fun times. felt good to reconnect with "new haven"/harpoon people, whom i don't get to see/hang out with much. especially sierra. i think it helped that jonas wasn't there, but i am optimistic things will be better even when he is around.

i am hoping to get so much done in lab, but i am feeling so distracted...i am going up to boston (again) with sean tomorrow (monday) night to celebrate sara jacobi's birthday. i wouldn't say that i am even that close to her, but she is a sweetie and it should be a good time. but that will kill tuesday morning. then: goaltimate with hammer wednesday evening, ramona practice thursday afternoon. plus, i have all these nagging errands to run: oil change + brake light on car, dentist appointment, figure out bank account stuff...i guess bank account stuff can wait for this week. moreover, what i need to/should/can get done in lab this week are TIRFM experiments, which take all day and then some. aaack!!

eating has been better, but then tonight...had a very nice, filling dinner and was happy & satisfied with it, but then later i went out and bought binge food and ate it. didn't eat it all, which i guess is something but still...why was i feeling unsettled? where did the urge come from? i guess i can't expect the urges to magically go away. i've got to just keep noticing them and analyzing them. this one was different in that i definitely wasn't hungry and not feeling outwardly anxious. hmmm....

cleaned the house this afternoon with edwin. i guess it was a little tricky to negotiate the sharing and coordination of it all. he was a little...almost know-it-all-y when it came to what to wash the kitchen floor with (we were out of our normal washing stuff). "hot water is very important," he shared with me. duh. i guess we both like to take charge and do things *our* way, but i think we are both also pretty laid back and can let someone else do it their way when it's not that big of a deal. this just boils down to boundaries and limits -- feeling OK with having them, being OK with expressing them, and accepting those of others.

and of course, last but not least: regionals next weekend! gearing up for it. want to get in ~2 last good workouts (some sprinting and agilities tomorrow, then goaltimate wednesday, and an easy go of it at ramona practice thursday). eat well thursday & friday. get enough sleep. hydrate. start to mentally prepare: visualize success, playing well, shutting my girl down on D, getting the lay-out, making that throw. throwing, i will also get in some throwing this week (mon w/ sean, wed @ goaltimate, and thurs @ practice). go into regionals cool, calm, and confident but not cocky. this is it...what we've been working towards all summer.

speaking of getting enough sleep, i should be off to bed. good night, moon.